Monday, April 30, 2007
i cannot find a way to describe this
its there inside
all i do is hide
i wish that it would just go away
what would you do;you do if you knew, what would you do
all the pain i thought i knew
all the thoughts lead back to you
back to what was never said
back and forth inside my head
i can't handle this confusion
i'm unable, come and take me away
i feel like i am all alone
all by myself
i need to get around this
my words are cold
i don't want them to hurt you
if i show you
i don't think you'd understand
'cause no one understands
-take me away by avril-
i guess things would be better without me; life would be the same without me, if i would to never exist in this world,life could be better for you.
this is not a suicide letter nor a way to say goodbye, just to let you know how i feel about myself.i lost my trusts and friends through my selfishness.i changed myself to be better and hope you realise that.
you swept my feet off the ground sometimes,and bring me back down to the ground as well.sometimes i just don't know what i've done wrong to make you frustrated or upset. Maybe its the way; the way i speak. Till now, i guess i've got no acceptance from anybody. Guess that i'm still alone, though i fought my way through.
you might think that things are pretty simple, things just have to go your way. But things just never change but got worse after that big fight we had. i've been filling up your little bottle, probably you couldn't see.
i'm ready for a change for the better....
this is so strange
4/30/2007 10:13:00 am
