Tuesday, July 17, 2007
hi people..i haven't be updating ..seriously..no time at all..
and no time to waste..projects piling up, semestral exams approaching..
getting sick..
no mood to do anything much..
my day today..
i might not be able to make him hold on to this anymore..
my fault or not my fault i really don't know..
my mind is full of ugly thoughts, but at least i'm not doing anything silly..
nothing can ever ease my pain..
just a stupid argument caused these..
i know why he don't want me to call...
he doesn;t want me to spoil his mood while he's working..
but what about me.. i don't get an answer and now my mind is full of thoughts..
i gave in.. always...but why....
i don't get treated the same way too?
unable to let go at all...even if i always say i want to..
my love...
always i want you back...
but would you ever do the same..
do you really really want us to grow old together?
we're getting impatient...
but i gave in this morning...purring like a cat, still....you still can't see..
i don't want that band anymore..
i don't want that ring anymore...
i just want you
and u might not or might see it... i don't know...
saving this relationship really almost take half of life away..even if i'm sick...its true but u think its a joke..
what more can i say...my lies before took away your trust..
and now...nothing can cover it anymore...
goodbye my love, my soul and my dead corpse...
now my life is in a messs...if only this is just a nightmare...
i will never forgive myself..................................................
i hate being me.............and................i can't do anything about it anymore............
this is so strange
7/17/2007 01:40:00 pm
