Friday, May 18, 2007
Sorry pals, haven't been free enough to sit infront of the computer to create a post.
I've received several offers for modelling assignments but i rejected them all, not because i'm a big shot or whatsoever; i'm lack of confidence, thinking that i won't get shortlisted.I kept thinking i'm fat, cellulites all over my body, not curvy enough..i always tell myself its my big bones.BUT i guess its not, i'm just lazy.Its like i wanna be pretty enough to start modelling again, but i don't bother to do anything to myself..
my esteem goes like poof!!
I'm going to start a diet, and i need my friends to be supportive, trying to control the amount of calories i consume..and i needa be taller, so that i can be qualified for assignments.
Before i start sobbing about how ugly i am myself, i'm gonna write down all the food i shouldn't consume, including my favourite chocolates and candies!
argh! it might be tough, but its about my modelling "career".
I gotta sleep early, and oh ya..tml is lena's birthday, i'm gonna be presentable tomorrow.
stretch and exercize alittle at home before i can do anything tomorrow morning!
sign off!
this is so strange
5/18/2007 10:59:00 pm
