Tuesday, October 23, 2007
i don't know what happen...
maybe he is sick and tired of me already, i no longer feel as loved as before.
something has indeed changed.
he gets frustrated easily because of me, whatever i do, its always wrong.
he always think i kaobeikaobu.
i don't know what he wanna do to me, he wants to change me, and love the other me.
he can't accept me anymore.
i remember how much he likes me to say the japanese phrase...
but once i talk about japanese.. he always tell me, "don't give me that japanese shit"
what happen???
always when i think negatively, i will have to tell myself, whatever he do, he cares for me, he want me to be a better person...
i guess no more...
its just no longer like that anymore.. i feel so...
things he do b4, he don't do it anymore..
i can't find a perfection in myself, but he wants me too..
he finds me a rather bad person, how long can i go under his harsh treatments..
sad to say, i really don't know...
i've learnt to be strong though.. i did.. no longer will i shed anymore tears
i really did my best to make him happy, i just felt that getting love from him is hardship.
little things can make him feel happy in the past, but now probably no more...
this is so strange
10/23/2007 09:25:00 am
